...you know what is RIGHT..Let Go...Walk Away..

It's been a while...A lot of things happened...May nakakalungkot, may nakakatuwa..But it's still balance.. hindi naman pwede na palagi na lang malungkot or puro na lang saya..

Pero ngaun hindi ko alam nararamdaman ko..my heart is my devil's advocate "Go on, love him as you used to be..pero ung tama lang.." BUT my brain tells me to.."LET Go..Walk away..Be kind to yourself..All your life, palagi ka na lang unang nagbibigay.. Unahin mo naman ngayon ang sarili mo.."

Yes..i do love THE PERSON..sadyang mahirap pag napamahal ka na..lalo't kaibigan mo pa..tsk tsk..minsan ka-text..minsan ka-chat..minsan nagkikita..in short minsang kwentuhan na minsan napapadalas...ano 'to gaano kadalas ang MINSAN?? We're friends..dyan ako nadadale eh..sa friendship..hindi naman ako kagandahan & madalas pumunta kung saan-saan..ayus na sa akin sharing of thoughts.. quotations..dreams..problems..chismis..at kung anek-anek pa..honestly, i can say he is one of my dearest friend..i can share any story or experience..ang gagawin nya lang..makinig..kahit paulit-ulit..Sa kanya ko nakita ang pinaka-sincere na matang tumitig sa akin..haayy..

a CONFESSION..hindi ko nakayanan what he had told me..akala ko makakaya kong tanggapin on that moment..saka ko lang na-realize hours after..wala talaga akong laban..i got hurt..really hurt (kasalanan ko naman eh)..naniwala ako sa pag-asa..pero ASA lang pala yun ;(

it's between THE FEELING or THE FRIENDSHIP..syempre ideally, friendship ang pipiliin ko..nandun pa rin yung concern, suporta & love for a friend..but when my heart will continue to whisper..."Kempets na yan!Itago mo na lang..hindi naman malalaman unless ma-excite ka na naman..." tapos follow your heart ang drama... emote-emote sa bus..sa mrt..sa jeep..s harap ng computer habang nakikinig ng MP3..ang dali ko talagang mahulog sa mga tripping ni kupido..kung hindi ako pinapana,

tinutulak naman ako..ano naman kaya ang susunod..babarilin na nya ako???

you know, THE SITUATION...It's really hard for me to let go..lalo't alam ko na ang DAPAT gawin & DAPATpiliin..pero hindi ko magawa..Sa choice na nagkakatalo.. Lumalabas na ang katangahan..well ganon talaga ako..

na-realize ko naman na TAMA lahat ng sinabi nya..it's a valid reason..& ayoko rin naman na mawala sya sa buhay ko..

kaya THE CHOICE..sa buong panahon na naramdaman ko ang ganitong feeling..hindi ko pinagsisihan na nagmahal ako & siya ang pinili ng puso ko..because it gave inspiration in my life..helped me get through a lot of emotions..& share to others my happy heart..i even asked God to guide me with this..i know it's a long process, needs a lot of time to heal the wounds of the crash..but i HAVE to go through this & it will pass..wala nga daw shortcuts..lalo na ang biglang liko..tumirik man ako.. may patuloy na magtutulak..Walk Away..Walk Away...Walk Away...

i know what is RIGHT..i will LET GO..

for our FRIENDSHIP......

"LETTING GO doesn't mean giving up..BUT rather accepting that there are things that cannot be.."